"NOT Learning from Pain" Poem

Not Learning from Pain Created by Darina S. on Oct. 7, 2003 Published by the Intl. Library of Poetry in Jan. 2004 Pain, pain, pain – why so much in vain? Why am I not learning from the pain Even if I know how much I am to gain Only if I could sit with the pain that remain One would expect to have mastered the pain Because of the many rounds worse than migraine But instead of learning it grows in disdain And the tolerance is low almost to complain Facing the pain has been the hardest – simple and plain Especially not trying to fix it, ignore it or bargain Constantly avoiding it does not stop the energy drain Nor is the escapist behavior a good thing to sustain Imagining that I can feel as if singing in the rain Or even better acknowledging the role of the brain Helps only to the extent of being relatively sane But the pulsing, throbbing, aching hits me again and again… When will I really learn from the pain? …